Fuh. Dah bersawang gamaknya blog ni. Nasib baik jumpa jalan yang lurus lagi diredhai ke blog ni.
Few weeks back, mom always call and ask me to go back home. Like seriously mak? It is very rare you know that she expresses her 'rindu' towards me. Sobs.
How can I resist that. Even with all my case clerkingS, ward rounds, unfinished and never finish syllabus all those things I put aside just because mom is calling me back. Yes, I managed to go back even just for two days. 6 to 10 hours journey wont affect me yeahhh. ya iya la tu.
This week, mom called me again. To ask me breaking fast together with mak and ayah. But this time, with tears and heavy word NO, I need to say NO. I feel bad. So bad. Like very bad as a daughter I need to say NO to my parents. Im having my exam next week. Im having another exam the next two weeks. This is not the only reason I feel bad for my family.
I am just thinking that this is just the beginning of my life as medical practitioner. To be exact, a doctor. I am just afraid to say NO to my family later in my life. I know there will be a time where you cant even celebrate raya, attend wedding ceremonies or having family gathering with your big family. I just feel bad about it.
Me being me. This is just one of the emo night.
missing all my sisters, mak ayah nephew niece
Sleepless night. Genite!
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